The Little Duck Fuck

(Picture Taken 24th August 2008 at Amcorp Mall Stairway.....Primitive art)

I WATCH THE NEWS AND I GET OFFENDED OVER STUPID SWEARING SESSION....ITS OVER RATED.....

i think all the swearing by saiful bahari is a total rubbish........i think he and anwar stories is the biggest joke for the country............ok this is my theory why he dare to swear in the name of God...

You know how we always twist and walk on the grey line.......ok rubbish talk.....maybe it is true that anwar sodomized him on that particular day.......but from the stories floating.....this is not the first time for those two love bird.....and saiful is not even a virgin......i mean his backside......(this is my own theory based on what i see and heard)

its hard to explain what I'm trying to say....example husband and wife..... everybody think that even when the husband forcing the wife to have sex or intercourse, is not raping.....WRONG.....

Every time someone say NO to something......the other party is actually breaching the privacy of his/her territory......... husband and wife might have sex for almost 20 yrs but the moment she say NO then the intercourse has now change to be RAPE

Simple right.....

Rape, sometimes called sexual assault, is an assault by a person involving sexual intercourse with or sexual penetration of another person without that person's consent.

that is the reason why i believe saiful dare to swear and irregardless what is his attention......i believe he is using religion as a political playground......

nobody is plain genuine in their interest.......everyone of us always hoping something in return irregardless for this life or life after death......

i do feel sympathy for saiful....but he is a man who is more then capable of taking care himself........stop all the crying and whimping...... grow up.....YOU HAVE BEEN SODOMIZED......accept the fact....why is the need of dranging the religion into this.....BUT I ACTUALLY DONT MIND HIM SWEARING THAT HE NEVER BEEN ARSE FUCK BEFORE.....(i know im bad but he such a baby) .......

and anwar....if he really do it.....then by all mean please somebody....anybody cut his wiener off..... so that he can actually focus in politic and help us to revive the country......

whether i like it or not.......he is still a better candidate compare to the current choice we have....... it is so sad loking at our political situation at the moment.....i dont understand why is Pak Lah still dont put a proper full stop into all this nonsense....what a disgrace for our country.....i dont care who play this stupid games....who will benefit from it....all i care is why are all these people who have the power did not stop all this nonsense at once......

so i believe this is the situation........hope you guys understand my weird theory.....

TWATTY THOUGHT:

SEX IS THE PRICE WOMAN PAY FOR MARRIAGE......MARRIAGE IS THE PRICE MEN PAY FOR SEX..........SODOMIZED IS THE PRICE MANKIND PAY FOR SORE ARSE AND BETTER POOPING SESSION.........

DONT UNDERESTIMATE THE POWER OF STUPID PEOPLE IN A LARGE GROUP........

Selfish - TO BE OR NOT TO BE

MY FAMILY

(Taken 070707 Cemetery Opposite Dewan Bahasa & Pustaka)

Hola,

Yesterday i attend the wrap party with my follow contestants......good to see them.....i guess.......
we talk....and talk ................hmmmm


Anyway.....some of my friend was actually commented on my last blog....how much they enjoy it......so I'm going to include bits and pieces from the old to the new......only now i will used less of those vulgar words....hehhehe


life is wired and funny......some of us think that is not right to be selfish...but other think that we should be selfish in order to survive.....


when it come to relationship and friendship.....do we really have to be selfish???????.....my self.....i know I'm very hard to handle.....I'm extremely stubborn.... sensitive..... emotional and many more......I AM VERY SELFISH WHEN IT COME TO MY FEELING..........(I think now I'm on reality show -the whole Malaysia know)


With me is WHAT YOU SEE, IS WHAT YOU GET.......I'm honest in my opinion and i will always tell the truth on what i think.....people who do not appreciate the truth....simply people who don't deserve my views or comment......

Sometime people get offended on certain words that been said......but if you are a true friend....then you know words are only words......it don't mean a thing.....we are the one that translate it and decide whether its hurt or not.


Human are human....we always make conclusion on what we seen.....so what if I'm being vain and cocky on the outside....its a tough world out there.....if i don't stand high then i will be lost in the crowd.......

But again these are the survival technic....you must project the image of being tough and have the confident in yourself in order to succeed......


In every inch of our self there is beauty....the inner beauty......we should be discovering and appreciating the inner beauty rather then the outer......We always take consideration on the physical and the attitude shown....but never we want to take the extra mile to learn what is the true beauty......what is inside of a person..... but again it is easy to remember to ugly side of people then the good side of it.....


When you want to give......you should give and hoping nothing in return.....give with your heart....and its should be unconditional........you love someone.....and you do because of that......not because we hoping someday in future we will get what we want.....


i think I'm very much a giver.....i sacrifices a lot in life for other people .....when i give i never mentioned......and hoping......just because we don't mentioned it...it doensnt mean that we don't GIVE????......but again who am i to judge my own deeds.....

TWATTY THOUGHT:

YOU HAVE NOT LIVED A PERFECT DAY,EVEN THOUGHT YOU HAVE EARNED YOUR MONEY, UNLESS YOU HAVE DONE SOMETHING FOR SOMEONE WHO CANNOT REPAY YOU.............

MALAYSIA BACKWARD

I love reading books.......i can sit hours and hours at book store browsing and reading books....... but i don't fancy book store in Malaysia......

As Malaysian our knowledge has been restricted by our government on what we CAN OR CANT SEE,...HEAR....TASTE.... ..and so on........

For a country who have been bitching around about moving forward....hmmmm .....i think our government is extremely old school.....for them to prevent is simply by banned. They don't even want to give us the society the benefit of doubt that we can differentiate between good and bad...right and wrong.....

By still by banned most things..... the government is actually making a statement that we Malaysian is stupid and not Independence.

Example: we all gonna have sex sooner or later. aight....then why sex book is ban in Malaysia.......why as a teenager we are not allow to read this kind of book......if they gonna do it might as well teach them the right way.....aight

Condom.....we can even show the condom add on tv.....i think condom is good to reduces and prevent abortion and increase our quality of living......EVERYBODY KNOW.....THAT EVERYBODY IS HAVING SEX....But why sex is still a taboo topic......

we cant blame or ban the book just because we think its gonna give bad idea or influences......GET REAL...........what we should do is...... increase the moral level and taught our kids to learn how to differentiate between what is bad and what is good....in another word...taught them how to used their common sense......everything must start from school and home.....as a parent...we should learn how to give them the trust and we must show them the respect especially in decision that they make......let them make the decision.....

as parents...we cant be with them forever....but we can always let them know that we will always be there for them when they need us......if they don't make mistake they wont know.....NO PAIN NO GAIN

not just book...even movies...they cut some romance and violence part......but still teenage now days are fuck up.......have u ever considered that its all started when they were young not when they were a teenager.....CARTOONS are the start of everything...of course everybody will say that cartoon is not real....but u were kids...everything is real....

example....popeye-how two guys fight over a girl.....doraemon....how kid start bullying others, power ranger - just ask the kid to fight and they start doing all this power ranger style... and many more(maybe my example is bad...i cant think right now...but u know what I'm saying)....

to prove that cartoon give a big impact in our life.....- take example of CINDERELLA....- every girl when they grow up they want to have a wedding and ending like a Cinderella...happily ever after...knowing its only a cartoon.....we all want to have a romantic life and passionate kiss like what we saw in Cinderella not in You Got Mail Movie...or Pretty Woman Movie (my example is really bad)

and do u remember about 10 years ago they ban all this sleeping beauty...cinderella.....and many more cartoon or even movies that have a step mom character...why...simply because....every time the kids heard about the father is going to remarried ....they keep on thinking how cruel and mean a step mom can be just like in the cartoon......and they start crying and got scared.....even until now.....


what I'm trying to say here is ...it is not the movie that we watch today that will make us tend to do nonsense thing...but what we saw when we were young...of course now some of us will be smart enough to tell which one is real and which one is not...coz we have experience it in life.......

by the way...have u seen the teacher that taught the kids in school???70% are useless......they barely can speak english....no self confidence.....u know what more pathetic....a standard 1 kids now days have to go to tuition to improve their study.....WHAT IS THIS???......how can a teacher ask the parent to send their 7 years old child for a tuition....they are 7 years old..of course they are stupid that's why we send them to school...TO LEARN.....what a retard......i just don't know how to comment.....


further more......they are very defensive and narrow minded..... how can a teacher be narrow minded????not just teacher...parents too....have u ever wonder why your children refused to talk to u....just simply because you narrow minded....you don't open up yourself to them......u restricted what can or cant be said.....this is how kids end up doing silly stuff coz they end up asking for advise from their friend who more or less have a shit for brain like them....then we as a parent....pretend to be shocked when shit hit the fan.....

most kids in Malaysia are SPOON FEED....what i mean is....THE PARENTS AND THE TEACHERS IS TELLING THEM WHAT TO THINK..... it is amazing how when we were young we always hate how our parents treat us but now we treat our kids the same why the do to us....SUCKER FOR PUNISHMENT.......

as an adult we should let our kids explore their own mind and pls...pls...pls encourage them to think...don't give them the solution every time they ask for it....force them to think......let them used their own brain.....teach them to be responsible.


by doing so we might have better chances of producing quality people instead of quantity.......this will not just improve our society but also improve our economy.....before i forgot.....who come with a theory that by having more children....god will give u more luck....rezeki lagi murah......sorry to say this....THAT IS PLAIN BULLSHIT.......60 to 100 years ago maybe people believe that .... but not now.....

do u guys know why they say u have more fortune or murah rezaki???its simply because when parents are having more kids.....normally they will motivated themselves to find more money in order to provide a living for the family... but sad to say that some people think that god going give them more money (especially the lazy fucker) just because they have a new baby.....the money wont come just by making babies....if that is the case believe me.....most of us will just sit home and fuck.....

i read a case which happen in France about 7 years ago.....where the child is suing the parents for letting him to be born knowing that he will suffer due to physical disorder.....this also effect his emotion.... can u believe this...???? i do.. and i agree.. of course there are two way of looking at things....but if u cant provide a life for all these children then why u want to make them suffer....
when they become a criminal who do we blame.........they live hard life and suffer sometime....but do they have a choice....do parents even consider if they want to be born in this environment.....

I'm not encouraging abortion here...what I'm saying is don't let others suffer for ur own pleasure......sometime we wonder...how can such an innocent and beautiful creatures turn to be a monster....

sometime not everything is worth to be given a second chance......sometime thing is just not meant to be....but some people think that - god give and we have to accept....is that mean that if god give us hard life we should just accept it and live thru it without even trying to improve our life????

but do we ever considered that maybe god want to test us.......to see if we can see what is right and wrong....sometime god give us a hard life but we still fight to survive because we know that's not what he want. god will never want to see us suffer....

as and adult ....we should open up our self...don't be narrow minded.....think ahead....the future.....


There is a book - WILL A GIRL WALKS LIKE A DUCK... i forgot who wrote this book...(will find out later) - if u have a sister or niece or teenager daughter...u should let them read this book....it is a good book for them to read.....its all QnA about date and pre-sex.....they will answer a lot of questioned for them.....about date..first kiss....whether it is right or wrong if the boy touch her on certain part and many more.....good books trust me....

sorry if i hurt some feeling.....but i hope u guys will be an adult who is not narrow minded....and respect others for their opinion even sometime its might sound stupid...... R.E.S.P.E.C.T


TWATTY THOUGHT:

LIFE ISN'T ALWAYS WONDERFUL - LIVE THRU IT.......JUST HOPE THAT IT WILL GET BETTER AS WE GROW......

LOVE....LOVE....LOVE.....SEX

That's my hubby........ahhh.....how sweet....not after married , sour a bit....hehehhe.

When i met my hubby....never thought he will the one.....until he quote "COMMUNICATION IS THE KEY TO GREAT SEX LIFE" ....then suddenly everything become clear to me that he is the one......hehehhe

Recently i have a chat with friends on the important of sex in relationship.......yeah...yeah...yeah nothing wrong we us talking about it.......

I know everybody always say that LOVE is not all about SEX......stop being hypocrite.....it does spice up 70% of relationship.

For me, sex (intercourse, make love or whatever you call it) is important. It make me feel safe, appreciated and feel adored. Just by having sex we can make someone feel like a million dollar person.

Maybe for man it does not mean much.......... but for us woman is about love and appreciation....

Even though women dont talk much about it, it does not mean it is not importatnt. In our society sex is still a taboo topic. I must admit at this point i have a tendency to blame it on our education system.


But again whatever it is we cant avoid to think that sex is important......imagine this....our entire generation is depend on sex. Without sex there is no next generation.....furthermore this is what have been decided by god....who are we to questioned it.

SUMMARY - A WOMAN LEAVES A MAN NOT BECAUSE SHE IS UNHAPPY WITH WHAT HE CAN PROVIDE.......BUT BECAUSE SHE IS EMOTIONALLY UNFULFILLED

TWATTY THOUGHT

If i can fuck as much as i can talk....my life will be less stress......but then i will be dead ..... hehehhe

My Stories - Read It

Something to share

17 Yrs Old

• My father died over stroke
• I was force to get married in January by my idiotic brother
• Second day of marriage my husband beat me up
• I got my first daughter - Yang Nur Amira born in November
• during pregnancy i eat egg for almost one month because i don't have money
• I was push down the stairs on my sweet 17th birthday
• Despite all problem i score 10aggregate for SPM

PS: I do not get married because I'm pregnant.

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18 Yrs Old

• My husband continue beat me up - broken tooth, fracture rib and tons of bruises
• I work as cashier at the cafe - morning 7am til 8pm
• I work as cashier at the pub - night 8pm til 3am
• Basically i only sleep 3 hours a day

My husband do not work.....i have to pay the room rent,food and everything else he need including his cigarette and weed. I do all this because i feel guilty.....i believe that my family has ruin his life by forcing him to marry me. Furthermore i don't want to give my brother self satisfaction by manage to ruin my life.

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19 yrs old

• My second daughter was born - Yang Nur atiqah
• My husband still abuse me
• I only work at night as an assistant manager for a pub
• Set up my first food stall with 500 capital - Today i earn net of 5k per month
• Enrol my self to college as i believe this is the only way i can better of my self
• Separate from my husband after he cut me with knife which i got 21 stitches

P/S: it is not easy to walk away when you been abuse....not because we aren't strong.....its hard to explain......you have to be there to know.....talk is easy

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20 yrs old

• Received my diploma - travel and tour
• Proceed with my degree - hotel mgt

Life is still hard as i have to raise my daughters........everybody have to make scarifies in life...i have to split my daughters....one go to my sister and the other go to my in law......break my heart......but i need to stabilize my self.

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21 yrs old

• Got my degree
• Got job offer from Cold Storage as Product Exec
• Meet my second husband

P/S : Begin to stabilize.....i took amira to stay with me

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22 yrs old

• Married again- second husband
• After two month - we are struggling emotionally as he lost a lot of money in business
• Begin to think I'm a jinx
• When to Australia to work and proceed with my MBA
• We separate after two years
• Operation 4 times for ectopic pregnancy - remove one Fallopian tube

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23 -25 yrs old

• Finishing my MBA
• Career was good as i earn almost 5k (AUD) per month almost 12k in ringgit
• Travelling all over Asia -tired
• My mum Past away
• I was Diagnose with cancer - How bad my luck can be

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26-27 yrs old

• After almost 1 year battling with cancer - cure
• New Career - Setting up F&B and entertainment outlet
• in and out relationship - mostly i attract psychopath ....
• Meet my third hubby after 2 month we decided to get engaged
• Found out that atiqah my second daughter was abuse by my first ex husband - kick,punch.....apparently it happen for sometime but my in law refuse to tell me
• Finally manage to take atiqah after been in and out police station and tons of tears

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28 yrs old

• Married to my third hubby
• Planning to open Little Turkey but have to cancel as we have to take out all our saving to help our family member who in so much debt
• Back to zero saving again
• Operation another 2 more time for ectopic pregnancy and removed another tube
• I cant get pregnant anymore ......so sad as i know my hubby will love to have baby

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29 yrs old

• this year ......not end yet
• So far i had operation remove my ovary
• i have high cholesterol too

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i have been

• Abuse as a wife
• single parent raising my daughters
• diagnose with cancer - cure
• I have no Fallopian tube and ovary
• lost all my saving
• married 3 times before 30 yrs old
• I earn my MBA by 25 yrs old
• manage to earn 5 figure salary
• have my own food stall before 20 yrs old

I think i have face quite a bit what life has to offer.....this is before I'm 30 yrs old.....what do you think?

TRUTH - Can You Handle It....

life is like a box of chocolate..........

hmmm......recently my life change....not much but slightly. I begin to treasure my self more then ever. I learn the meaning of fame and friendship.

as an human, we always under estimate our capabilities....but when we put it on test, then we will see the different side of our self..... Maybe our true self as our subconscious mind begin to react

One think i know for sure.....I KNOW WHO I AM....and I KNOW WHAT/WHO I WANT TO BE. I don't need to back stab and pretend.....i say straight to their face if i don't like something...... definitely i will not pretend to be nice, so that my colleagues will help to safe me or make me look good or even make me win. I'm just being honest ....i speak my mind.....hey....TRUTH HURT.

This is what people don't understand about me.....basically i don care what or how people want me to be.....I'm the one who have to look at myself on the mirror everyday. i have achieve so much in my life, that most people my age have not. and i am super proud of my self.

However i want to be or react..... whether I'm being bitchy or childish or bossy or diva ......THAT'S HOW I LIKE IT......if anybody have any problem with it....by all mean WALK AWAY.......i have enough friends (Real friend...not two face friend) not trying to be cocky.....I have been struggle and suffer a lot in my life......suddenly when my life about to change slightly people start telling me how to react.....i don't care.....

Don't judge a book by its cover.......people who know me well.....love and cherish me....and that's all i care and matter.

I have good heart....i always put others before me. I'm not selfish.....I'm sincere..... I'm honest....I HAVE GOOD VALUES SYSTEM .......but i don't hope for people to like me neither i shall adore them

Summary......

EVERYBODY HAVE THEIR OWN PREFERENCE......BELIEVE IN YOURSELF AND TRUST YOUR HEART......NEVER REGRET.........WHEN YOU IN TROUBLE ......THERE WILL ONLY YOU CAN HELP YOURSELF........this is me.........Cios


TWATTY THOUGHT:

Many time people questioned why do others lie.....maybe simple because we cant handle the truth............We always blame those who lied....but do we ever once stop and accepting the truth? Saying is easy....accepting is hard

LOVE ALL.......HATE ALL

As i read the blog i begin to wonder.....should i be happy or should i be sad. Wow.... i cant believe the number of people that think im a mean bitch.....Well, obviously you dont know me and have no idea what is my background and life stories.

But Nevermind ...its human nature to pre judge. For those who loves to hate me.....I dont Blame you.........Im very outspoken and i really speak my mind.....Like what been said by my fellow contestants, there is much more behind the scenes......I CAN BRAG AND BE BITCHY SIMPLY BECAUSE I ALWAYS PUT MY BEST FOOT IN FRONT and TAKE RESPONSIBILITY.....

ie-ON THE FIRST TASK......ME , CHRIS and JOO LEE is the one that stay up ALLLLLLLLL NIGHT to get everything prepared. And then come all this A** H**** claiming to be professional and trying to comment and earn all the credit.............Saying that this is new strategies and what ever crap bla bla bla.........

GUYS THE SHOW IS FINISH......Be Honest for once and tell your "fans" what actually happen and how you guys actually help and trying "Very Hard " to contribute......Stop whining ....and bitching around.....and most of all stop pretending......

ie-On second episode i was given a a simple task - to do the set up and F&B (which i excell according to client) but again we all contributes and do our part...we lost because of the speakers(Sorry Joo Lee and Kian You) yet i got blame. I stay up all night again with Chris and Joo Lee packing and make final adjustment..................I DONT KNOW WHY I NEED TO JUSTIFY ALL THIS......i know i did my best ....thats what matter the most.


To be honest i dont care if people hate me......all my life i have struggles ALONE....when im in trouble no one come to my rescue......At least my values are right.....im honest and not a hypocrite.....i mean what i say and say what i mean....

im not just talk the talk.....when it come to task i do my part.I might not win all the task. But i do CHALLENGE, TO ANY OF THE CONTESTANTS TO SAY OR PROOF THAT I DID NOT GIVE MY 150% EFFORT in any task irregardless who is the leader..........By all mean, proof me wrong.....proof to the audiences that what you guys say about me is true.....that im just a stupid bitch with a big mouth .......

Nevertherless......i do appologize if i hurt any feeling.........Anyway there is plenty more nice contestants in the show whom i enjoy working with......i wish all of them a best of luck

Terrence - I love him as a person - Leader NO
Joo Lee - A true friend..... Love Her
Kian You - Hate him a lot in the begining but begin to give him some credit - No that bad hehehe
Chris - Love Hate Relationship - Still Treasure the good time
Salasiah - Still feel bad for what happen to her ......she actually nice and very perky person
Dian - Love you.....
Masami - She actually very easy going person - Hope she find her "PUPPY"
Ridzuan - BONSAI - Mr Motivator.....everything ok cuma tak cukup tinggi...Hehehe
CA - Still hoping i was given a chance to work with you.....maybe in future
Boon Yew - Very nice guy. Ladies Killer
Jen - She is a survivor .....have no doubt she will be great in future ....Politician?
Anoop - DR JAHAR season 2
Yuen Wai - Very hard for me.....behind camera i do love and like him .......but not when the camera is on........he is different.....and some of the things he did......i will never forgive him.....sorry

Thats sum up everything........Love all...Hate all.....Cheers